When all the papers are over, I'm going to devote all my time to creating. Writing, reading, drawing, making postcards, taking photographs - basically anything that includes an element of creation.

And I might finally start on the little project that's been brewing in my mind for quite a while. Maybe it'll teach me to be independent.

Sometimes I just feel the need to pick myself up and start doing something good about my life. Disappointments, wants, mistakes, being a burden, all too many. Need to start making conventions, invent rules only I can live by. Creating. Even making things that I can proudly call my own. A sense of ownership, ownership of my own life. To grab life by the reins and tug hard and make myself worth living for.